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Thursday, 27 September 2007
Friday, 07 September 2007
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Post 178 - Time
A Writing Request from Life_Interludes
Time. It seems that everyone constantly has time on their minds. None probably more so than me. I have looked back and considered, "Did I make the right choices?" I'm sure most everyone would take the chance in a heartbeat if they were given the chance to go back in time and do it all over again. I know I would. I know there are so many things I would do differently.
The other night I borrowed a DVD from my aunt. It's a movie that I've been wanting to see for a long time. "Last Holiday" starring Queen Latifah, is a flick about an average woman that discovers that she has a rare disease and only has 3 weeks to live. So she quits her job, cleans out her accounts and cashes her bonds, and travels and does the things that she'd always wanted to do but never had the chance to.
There is also a country song by Tim McGraw called "Live Like You Were Dying."He said: "I was in my early forties,
"With a lot of life before me,
"An' a moment came that stopped me on a dime.
"I spent most of the next days,
"Looking at the x-rays,
"An' talking 'bout the options an' talkin’ ‘bout sweet time."
I asked him when it sank in,
That this might really be the real end?
How’s it hit you when you get that kind of news?
Man whatcha do?
An' he said: "I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."
He said "I was finally the husband,
"That most the time I wasn’t.
"An' I became a friend a friend would like to have.
"And all of a sudden goin' fishin’,
"Wasn’t such an imposition,
"And I went three times that year I lost my Dad.
"Well, I finally read the Good Book,
"And I took a good long hard look,
"At what I'd do if I could do it all again,
"And then:
"I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."
Like tomorrow was a gift,
And you got eternity,
To think about what you’d do with it.
An' what did you do with it?
An' what can I do with it?
An' what would I do with it?
"Sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I watched Blue Eagle as it was flyin'."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."
Ever since I saw that movie and heard that song, it makes me think about time, and the fact that we really don't have all that much of it. We should use what we have to the best of our ability, or as those ancient Greeks would say, "Carpe Diem," or "Seize the Day."
Thursday, 06 September 2007
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Post 177 - Happenings
Okay. I just read my last post, which I wrote about a month ago. Geez. I sound depressed. Since it has obviously been a while since I wrote, I'll just let everyone know how I'm doing and what's been happening in the life of me.
Kaleb has learned to crawl. He'll be on one side of the room, I'll turn around and voila, he'll be on the other side of the room putting something random in his mouth. This is the age at which I have to be on my guard. Sometimes I wish I had a few extra eyes on the back of my head. He is also napping less and awake more, so that means even more time to keep an extra close eye on the ever moving baby.
Today, I emailed a local group that puts on a spook walk every year about volunteering. Their proceeds go to a local charity that gives food away called Agape Mission. I've always wanted to work for a spook walk. I went to the Castle of Muskogee a couple of years ago, and we're planning on going again this year. Ever since I went I thought that it would be awesome to work for something like that. Plus, it'll be for something charitable. Volunteering will give me something exciting to do and something to look forward to.
Oh yeah... I finally got my hair done. And no, it wasn't anything too drastic. I got my hair cut to a little above the shoulder with some blonde highlights. I like it. It's a bit classy.
Greg and my anniversary will be in about a week. We'll be married for 2 years on the 17th. Wow. Time flies. We are thinking about driving somewhere. At first we were thinking about going to Corpus Cristi in Texas, but seeing as that is an 11 hour drive and we only have 2 days, we decided against it. Another thought is Memphis, Tennessee. I think that it will be fun. Greg's been there a couple times before, and really wants to go back. (He wants me to see Graceland. That's Elvis's house for those of you that don't know.) Well, wherever we go, it's sure to be a blast. Kaleb will sure enjoy it. He loves everything. Geez, he's just so happy all the time!
Monday, 13 August 2007
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Post 176 - Life Changes
The past few weeks I've had these feelings in the pit of my stomach that have made me feel like I need to do something better in my life. I watch these reality TV shows where people start from nothing and become these rich and famous celebrities. I see these things on the internet, magazines, television. It surrounds me. It's like the world is mocking me. "What are you going to do with your life, Kristin???"
So far, all I've managed to do is get married and have a kid. Now, I'm not saying that I regret any of it. I love my husband and my son more than anyone could possibly know, but I still feel like I have something missing in my life.
I sit here everyday and stare at the computer screen or a television screen. It's been three years since high school, and I occasionally run into someone that I knew then, but that is it. As horrible as it sounds, I have no friends. I feel very isolated. I'll go to my aunt's house sometimes, and my mom and sisters come over to my house. Greg and I will go to Tulsa sometimes to go shopping for groceries, or just splurge. Aside from family, I see no one else. I am a bit depressed.
I used to be very thin and in shape, but now... well, let's just say that when I try to do a push-up nothing happens. I won't go so far as to say I'm fat, but I have definitely filled out in a few places since I had the baby. I have a sickly pale hue to my skin, and I have dark circles under my eyes. I've never been able to get a tan, and I've never really had the money to go to a tanning salon. I don't feel very pretty.
What I need is a few life changes. I am thinking about possibly joining a health club and starting to work out. I'm also going to get a hair cut and maybe even dyed. I am going to start tanning and get a bit less transparent. I need to feel beautiful.
Wednesday, 01 August 2007
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Post 175 - It's Been Awhile
Yeah. I know. I haven't written in this thing for a while.
I'm lazy today. So I'm not going to write in full paragraphs.
I hate summer. It is too hot. Ug.
We are 100% moved in. Thank God.
Kaleb has a cold. Poor baby. It is the first time he's ever been sick.
I will get some house pics on here soon... I hope.
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- Name: Kristin
- Country: United States
- State: Oklahoma
- Metro: Bartlesville
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 4/26/2006
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